Job Hunting!!

So today im job hunting, and i realised its gonna quite hard to find a job then i remember (yes i kno its early) its CHRISTMASSSS soon so there will be a few temp jobs and i know that shops start looking early so just gonna have to put myself out there and find one asap! ahh but you know what the whole process of job hunting is horrible as ur constantly being rejected and i HATE THAT soooo much ahhh it grinds my gears! Because you have to keep this fake smile plastered on ur face even though you being rejected and you can walk in to loads of places without even giving out 1 CV!!! That's why i love the whole online thing, all shops should do it because it also helps the environment as your not wasting paper!! i just hope i get a job because i need the money and something to do when im not studying. and if i had i job i can like timetable around it right know i dont know when i should start studying. i just have soo much time its like aaahhhh! And i also saw these shoes i LOVE and couldnt buy then because i have like no money which make me soo sad and want a job even more haha!. Anywho i just hope i get a job because being at home sucks and it soo boring! so positive thinking at lets get that job woohoo.

I have got a plan!!!

Ok, on august 18th 2011 it was a level results day, i didn't do so well and kinda flopped i mean i didn't do absolutely terribly i got a CDE in media, math and philosophy. i didn't get into my first or second choice so i was in clearing and as soon as i saw that i was like ok im not going to uni don't get me wrong i did call up loads of uni's but the lines were so busy and the people were not so helpful, also i was going abroad the next day so i thought fuck it i will do it when i got back. so i went away had a sick time came back rang the uni and and was presented with the response "all the places have been filled" and i just sank i started crying i mean I'm not going to uni. i mean in this day and age and the tutiton fees going u next year i felt like i have just failed and i just felt so lost, like i had hit a brick wall. i started to panic i needed help and being a young person growing up in the "digital era" i turned to the trusty world wide world, specifically yahoo answers and got some pretty helpful advice (thank you to those who replied to my post =D).The unspoken social code in the UK is to finish your alevels go to uni and get a good job, if you don't you failed, that's the so wrong and i have realised that now and it really needs to change (but that's a discussion for next time) anywho, so i have finally told my parents about what I'm gonna do, i was so ashamed that i didn't go uni and i knew they were very disappointed, but hey maybe it fate i dint go to uni this year and i think i have accepted it now and moved on. So here my plan; 1) I'm going to retake maths and philosophy and study on my own because i don't wanna go back to school i don't think its for me anymore I'm sick of that environment.

2) get a job i have some experience in retail and telesales so hopefully i can get a job to make a bit of money and do something in my spare time and also to make my parents less disappointed in me.

3) i have been looking online and i know i wanna work in media/advertising so i have seen some internships at the bbc, channel 4 and other productions companies who are starting internships in march 2012 so i will apply to do that.

so yeh that's my plan for the next year and hopefully i will get into uni next year because its not the end and i think that writing this blog will help me remember that and maybe i wont even need uni and create a career without having to go uni, i know ppl say that uni was the best time of their life and all that but many of then get out of it are completely lost because they have never been completely independent and live in this "student life" bubble for 3 years and cant transfer skills.

So this blog is really for me to basically reevaluate my life and look back on this in a few years and say i achieved my goals but i also want to help ppl in a similar position as me and go through this experience together. So this is kinda the beginning of REAL life for me and doing what i wanna do and not what society tell me to do.